My Idol

Having another baby became my idol. It was on my mind 100% of the day and distracted me from so many other things…family, friends, myself, and most importantly the One who loves me the most, my Jesus.

Rewind about three Sundays ago, after a stressful morning in the nursery (Reese being the one that flustered me…sharing her mommy isn’t her favorite thing to do J), I finally made it to church. I sat down in the pew and when Bro. Wayne started his message, I felt like the only person in the room. THIS is what the Lord has been trying to teach me over the last several months (well, years really…) and I had ignored Him time and time again. His message was in Jeremiah 17. In studying Isaiah in Bible Study Fellowship paired with this message of asking ourselves who do we REALLY trust? I was hit square in the eyes. Having another baby had become my idol and I was trusting in myself completely…trusting that I knew best. Who I am to question, or try to “adjust” God’s will, His timing or His plan for my family’s life? When I took the Nursery/Preschool Co-director position in January, I had no idea why…until now. Teaching those little ones have been such a blessing…and a great “distraction” from what was on my mind 100% of the time. Preparing my heart for teaching them every Sunday and every Wednesday has been such a special time and seeing the JOY and Biblical knowledge that these little ones are SOAKING up, is such a blessing. I am right where I am supposed to be.

Jeremiah 17:7 “Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose trust is the LORD.”

Trusting in my own heart is foolish but I do it so many times.
Jeremiah 17:9-1 “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it? I the LORD search the heart and test the mind, to give every man according to his ways, according to the fruit of his deeds.”

The Lord is doing so much in my life, it gives me tears and chills to even begin to think about it. I won’t be going too much into what’s going on over the next couple months, except for the fact we are praying, seeking the Lords will, timing, and peace for our family, making appointments and hopefully will have good news to announce sooner than later.

Isaiah 43:2 “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.”
Isn’t that so comforting? The “waters, rivers and fires” we have faced over the last year, God has been with us the entire time.

Thanks for letting me share my heart.