Coping. Better than I thought.

Just a little update on me. I’m doing much better than I thought I would be doing. I really try not to let my mind “go there” and busy myself with things that matter rather than obsessing over things I can’t change. Over the last week and a half, I have experienced emotions I would never wish on anyone, but it’s no accident. No surprise to my Jesus and He is the one helping me pick up my pieces and continuing MY story.

We know the Lord works all things for GOOD and in this situation, it is so hard to see the good. I may not see it for years and years and years down the road. But, His promises are true. I am clinging to those promises.

I attended a support group meeting this week with a group of ladies that I had never met before. This was totally out of my comfort zone but deep down in my heart, I knew I needed to go. I left that meeting encouraged and blessed and will be going back. I shared my story and even after sharing, I still am in shock of what the Lord has brought us through in 6 years of marriage. Not the story I would have written but the PERFECT story that HE is writing for our little family. Whatever the ending, it will be GOOD!

I have truly cherished each and every minute I’ve had with Reese this last week and a half (I did before, but now it’s with a different perspective) and we have just had the best two weeks. Clay has been awesome, and even though I know he is hurting just as much as I am, he realizes he has to be strong for me. Some days, I felt as if I could crumble in a million pieces and he knew just the right words to say (or not to say!) to change my focus on the here and now.

We have an appointment next week with our doctor to figure out what’s next. We are already praying for the Lord to guide our steps and direct us in HIS way.

I can’t write a post without a picture of my treasure. Our favorite photographer, Bella Blue Photography, captured Reese perfectly in these two pictures. She took her 3 year old shots last weekend and these are the “teasers” she has sent me. I cannot wait to see the rest! Enjoy